i want to meet you right now obviously, i want to tell you about the things that have been running through my head, i want you to tell me thing are okay, and give me reasonablee explainations telling me im wrong, which is something i like to hear.
i wish yu were right here to hug me, and tell me your back.
Hey. Stuff happens. People will change. Your best friend will become your worst enemy. You will fall to pieces, and wish you never existed. You’ll have new regrets and new mistakes. You’ll fall in love, and he’ll break your heart. You’ll argue, and cry yourself to sleep. There will be some days when you can’t drag yourself out of bed. You’ll look in the mirror and hate what you see. But things will get better. Every time you fall down, you get back up. You grow up a little more with each mistake. And no matter how hard it may seem, remember that this is only a chapter of your life. Life goes on.
honestly you’ve made me go through hell, without my amazing friends, (hannah&jon) i wouldnt have survived. i hope one day you realize how much of a cock face you are. & honestly im not gonna waste my time writting a whole , friggn page . i’ll keep it simple. i miss you, & i wish we would have just stayed as friends. not to the best friends level or anything. i wish you would come back to me, but only in the ‘lets stay friends’ way. not like we were any more than that, but as in, im cool with you, i can talk to you, but i dont need to or have to or want to. i just, sigh, i miss you and i wish you would be my friend again. oh well thats impossible, but i hope your okay at ny, and i hope you stay there.
i do not know you at all, so i dunno what to say o.o well i will say hi, i am jesseeka mimo yun (: i am very moody, judgemental, & so on & so on, and theres nothing really anything good about me, so dont stick around, run away ! you wont want to be with a person like me , but if you dare, get to know me, hopefully i wont bite you too hard ♣
your very random, i wished you stop with the flash backs of my past, i wished you would stop making the worst case senarios & i wish you would stop making me live in a world i love alot, or i hate alot. dear dreams, you scare me because your so spontaneous, one night i will live the life i want to one night ill dream screaming & crying & flash backs of the past… please stop, i just want to sleep.
honestly i miss the days when you were so innocent& stopid, and when you would always rely on me & when i was the closest person to you. i miss the days where we would play with dolss, i would make you cry, when we would drive my parents crazy. i missed the days when you were so immature, & now your so, .. cocky, annoying, a crybaby, and you’e become greedy, selfish, & just like our mom. how sad that makes me. maybe it was my fault for some of your bad characteristics, but that cant be possible, since i honestly never did anything to you but play with you& made you smile & now and then bite you& make you cry. but i wasnt that harsh was i ? i am sorry if i was. now a days all you care about is the computer, and i just sit and wonder, why you put computer in front of me. me, the one who would make you feel better when you cried, the one who would give up my precious time to play with you& do all this nonsense and went all out for you. the one who would put the money underneath your pillow, the one who was your santa& bought you gifts & put them under the tree on the night of christmas eve. when mom & dad wuldn’t d anything for you, i would do everything for you. i bet you dont remember, because you were so young, and oh lord i sound like a 50 year old, but its true, i remember all the times. all thefriggn times i tried to help you… and instead you repayed me by getting me in trouble when i thought i could rely on you…..instead you ..you.. sigh. whatever im out of time, but ryan, one day i hope you become a better person than me & i hope you will realize how much i gave up for your fat ass
fuck you. honestly im too tired to write a hold dam letter for you. it would def, be a waste of time. honestly stop acting like you care, i know you dont, and you say i dnt ever listen when now a days i do everything just for your dam god sakes. stop whining that im such a bad daughter, fuckyou. im getting straight a;s and your still not dam satisfied. you never loved me, you just wanted to use me to look like good parents. you only cared about my grades and everything BUT me. me , the person who i am. you never cared if i was hurt, and you never cared to look at me, i really am starting to hate you more than ever. when i needed you the most, you looked away, and even treated worser than other times, fuck you.
God is my number one solution. He is the person that will listen to all of my problems, and will always stay by my side. He’s helping me through a lot right now. All the problems that are going on. He’s just there, listening to my problems, and helping me out.
P.U.S.H. Pray until something happens. I always keep this abbreviation in my mind. Just keep praying. God works in mysterious ways. He’ll do the unexpected.