I’m usually never a religious person, but i realize from last night, God lets things happen, good or bad. he chooses whats best for us. so we should thank God, for whatever happens to us, good or bad. For who are we to tell God what to do? we are sinners, would should accept what ever happens to us and be grateful, for God Himself, chose that path for us<3
Tumblr, recently my boyfriend broke up with me. at first i didnt know what was happening i felt like he was going to come back. but i realize he wasnt going to. he broke up because obviously… he didnt like me anymore… but tumblr, last night i was in tears, my heart felt so empty and it hurt, my heart was causing me pain, i wanted to dye. i called to God instantly, instinctly, to heal me, that He was the number one healer in this world, to forgive me for my sins, to forgive me from running away from Him.., to help His daughter on earth, who was depressed and sad… i asked for hope for the future with Him and i started to pour my heart out to Him in prayer, and after i felt so,.. lighten and so free. i didnt feel that pain anymore, and i felt so happy ! that was when i grabbed my itouch and started to look up on youtube for songs about Him, and i started to praise Him, i know sounds really corney and crap but i did.. i read the bible, and i kept praying all night, until i fell asleep. my dream was me, i was running on a straight road, i was taking a jog in the morning mist , running past mountains and hills overcoming my obstacles in my morning jog… i of course chose wrong paths, and that led to me getting stratches and brusies. the wrong paths led to me breaking my wrist bones and my face was all swollen. but in the end i ended up on the straight path once more.. i kept running until i saw a light, a clearing. a house, and soon i realize it was more than a house, it was my home. and then i saw as i kept running, eyes locked on the small house, i saw someone come out, someone shinning . no it was not edward cullen, it was someone who had his arms stretched out for me, someone who loves me, unconditionally. my Father.
that was when i woke up, with the sun in my face, smiling. i never wanted Him to let me go, and i knew He would never, unless i wanted Him too. i knew i was His beloved, His creation, i knew He knew i was a sinner, and that He was my mercyful Father, that He forgave me, and loved me as His own.
Dear tumblr, nobody can defeat this happiness inside me. that i found Him„ and the purpose why me and josh broke up, the real reason, for me to find Him, to go after Him. and He was of course waiting for me, can anyone beat the love, the unconditional and stable love, He , Jesus Christ, has for me? no , never. no on could ever beat that♥