I thought you were the one person I could count on an rely to be there for me . I guess not, I trusted and judged you too quickly. It hurts and feels empty knowing another person who I thought I was close to was really distant and far away.
But it’s okay, time will pass and I’ll get over it.
its hard, i dont want to hurt you ever again, i want to avoid it in any way if i can. but i miss you, yet i know im emotional and indecisive. i keep thinking “i could go back, i want to.” i miss you, all the memories and the great times we had. i keep thinking about all the good things, and i try to remember the bad things, but the only ones were when i didnt get your 100% attention. i remember all the small things and big things, good and bad, youve done to me. its been 9 months apart, and im still going crazy, is this normal?
I’m pretty proud of myself. I’ve actually haven’t fallen asleep in highschool that much, maybe three times this year so far, and that’s REALLY good for me ! And I haven’t missed any homework assignments!… Yet. I have been getting 97% on my quizzes for history and geometry, and I just feel so.. Confident? Successful? Accomplished? I don’t know I just know I’m doing good, I feel good, and I want to keep this up.