before, in the beginning of this school year, i felt like i was trapped in my own mind, and i felt uncomfortable. Nowadays, i feel completely comfortable with my thoughts and opinions, my confidence is growing, and i love it. But the problem now is my body. ive damaged it to the point of the return, all i can do now is to prevent further damage. i never realized how serious of what i was doing to my body was. now im paying the price, but its frustrating. my body is a shell i want to get rid of, its holding me back. i feel physically unsatisfied with the amount of stamina i have. this is a small problem compared to the shit people have, so im grateful that i only have this small problem. but its still very frustrating, the one thing i was always confident in while growing up, i can’t be confident in anymore. sigh, lesson learned.