Anonymous said:
i don't get it. you say that you care about school and grades and want to get things in check and then you don't bother to try and get your sleep right and go out all the time and do the exact opposite of what you need to do. you miss class and skip school and then spend time hanging out with friends and stuff when you could be working. if you cared as much as you say wouldn't you sacrifice some? your friends will still be there you know.... idk you just confuse me. youre so destructive.

Destructive is the perfect word to describe my existence.

But I don’t know what to tell you, 90% of the time i don’t get it either.

i have this bad habit- i just tend to act first and think later. It fucks me over in the end. Maybe i kind of enjoy the stress, maybe i’m a bit masochistic.

I just don’t have my priorities in line. I want everything and everyone to be my number 1 but i can only choose one or two. So because i pursue this unrealistic fantasy of juggling everything in my life at once, I end up sacrificing my health and what not. I don’t know, it doesn’t sound smart but i’m sure it’ll all end in a imperfectly perfect knot.